“Shame loves secrets. Shame cannot stand being spoken.” — Brene Brown
The shame of having herpes tends to pull us into our own scary shadows (even though just a few feet away in the light are plenty of people telling you to quit the negative fantasy BS and hear that you’re worthy of a deluge of love.) Shame has us stay blind in the darkness of our own self-defeating mind-cage to try to deal with it on our own (like any strong person should be able to do, right?). But that has us telling ourselves the (false) story that we are alone. We are not alone. YOU are NOT alone! Squash the story! The more you can really allow yourself to get that, the less shame you will have, the more likely you will be to reach out when you need it, the more love will be available to let in, the more healing and growth happens. The more you free yourself of stigmatizing labels, the more free you are to be YOU. And what’s more lovable than that? (Rhetorical question.)
"An addict needs shame like a man dying of thirst needs saltwater.” (Terrence Real)
Brown (whose work also appears in this post) defines shame as “The intensely painful experience or belief that you’re flawed and unworthy of love and belonging.” And what better excuse to believe all those horrible things than herpes? Then somewhere along the line, some less-than-nice voice inside of us got the bright idea that if it shames us enough, we’ll somehow rewind time and be free of this virus. On some level, we believe that if we punish ourselves, the pain will go away. How ironic is that? Much of the pain is self-inflicted and in our own heads anyway. Why do we put ourselves through so much? What happens when we stop beating ourselves up? How is shame like saltwater to the thirsty?
Brown says “A belief that we’re not worthy of love and belonging is what drives most of the destructive behavior we see.” So true. We seem to by default choose the stick to beat ourselves with instead of eating a healthy carrot. We somehow think that if we heap on enough shame, that will make things better, but it’s not quenching our thirst for love. Shame is just making things worse. So it’s not about avoiding the shame by trying to somehow prove our worthiness … You are worthy. Period. Know that. Own it. Once you get that you are worthy of love, you will start treating yourself differently, which will pave the way for the love from others to come charging in.
We hear of the stigma of herpes and create a story about ourselves that doesn’t match with who we truly are. Are you stigmatizing yourself? Stop it! You don’t deserve it! Love yourself instead. Be compassionate with yourself instead. It will take you so much further. Sounds great, but how the heck do I move past the shame?
Think about your process in stages of opening up yourself to more and more love and support. If shame is about closing down, self-love is about opening up. First thing I want you to notice: You’re here reading this article. That’s the first step to reaching out. You’re reading this because you care about yourself enough to feel better and to stop beating yourself up. Good job! Next steps:
Connect with people who care. Reach out more when you need it. And the reaching out doesn’t necessarily have to have the whole herpes label attached to it; maybe it’s simply going out to lunch with a friend to catch up. Connecting with loved ones is a great way to prove that you’re not alone.
Over-the-phone herpes support group. Attending our live virtual herpes support group might be the next step to start talking more openly about where you are with herpes; it’s over the phone, so you can have as much privacy as you’d like.
Get an (h) buddy! We also have a herpes buddy system (contact me directly for that) where we’ll match you up one-on-one with someone else who has herpes so you two can talk about whatever you’d like.
“Shame loves secrets. Shame cannot stand being spoken.” — Brene Brown
The shame of having herpes tends to have us pull away from sharing what we are going through. It has us stay in the darkness and try to deal with it on our own. But that has us telling ourselves the (false) story that we are alone. We are not alone. YOU are NOT alone! The more you can really allow yourself to get that, the less shame you will have, the more likely you will be to reach out when you need it, the more love will be available to let in, the more healing and growth happens. The more you free yourself of stigmatizing labels, the more free you are to be you. And what’s more lovable than that?
"An addict needs shame like a man dying of thirst needs saltwater.” (Terrence Real)
Some less-than-nice voice inside of us believes that if we beat ourselves up enough, we’ll eventually learn from our mistakes and nothing bad will ever happen again. If we punish ourselves enough, the pain will go away. But much of the pain is self-inflicted. Why do we put ourselves through so much?
“A belief that we’re not worthy of love and belonging is what drives most of the destructive behavior we see.” So it’s not about avoiding the shame by trying to somehow prove our worthiness … you’re worthy. Period. Know that. Own it. Once you get that you are worthy of love, you will start treating yourself differently first, which will pave the way for the love of others to come on in, too.
We hear of the stigma of herpes and create a story about ourselves that doesn’t match with who we truly are. Are you stigmatizing yourself? Stop it! You don’t deserve it! Love yourself instead. Be compassionate with yourself instead. It will take you so much further.
Next steps:
